Wednesday, August 19, 2015

Dark Memories-Tulelake Internment Center

In the early 2000's, I was a student at Humboldt State University in Arcata, CA. Humboldt County is on the far north coast of California. They are known for liberal politics, beautiful nature, a large homeless population and marijuana. One of the undergraduate requirements was 2 earth science classes. Having grown up on the West Coast, I was familiar with earthquakes that split the earth and caused destruction. I had thoroughly enjoyed a popular class called "Earthquake Country" for my lower level earth science requirement so I chose Geology of California for the upper level requirement.

The class itself was rather monotonous. The professor read aloud from the textbook instead of actual lectures. The most interesting part of the class were the required field trips to geologically significant area. The first one I went on was to Lava Beds National Monument in the northeast corner of California. Our first night was spent at Trinity Lake. My classmates seemed happy to get away from school and treated like a party by the lake. I wasn't a night owl at the time so I went to my tent around 11pm. Around 7am, I left my tent and went to the shore of the lake. Trinity Lake is quite large, it was already autumn so there was a chill on the lake. I stood there and gloried in the beauty of the lake and surrounding forest. We packed up our tents and hot back on the bus to head to the lava tubes.

As we drove, we moved to a high desert area. The professor announced that we'd be looking at areas around the dry Tule Lake. One of the geologically significant things there was a giant rock formation. It was in the center of the dry lake. The lake had been dry for many years by then. We walked to the rock formations and saw the art on the rock done by past generations of the Modoc tribe. When it was time to get off the bus again, the professor warned us that we might be disturbed by what we saw. He didn't let on why but I soon found out. 

We had arrived the Tulelake Internment Center. The building had originally been used for the California Conservation Corp.

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tulelake_camp

 After the bombing of Pearl Harbor, it was used for another purpose. The Japanese population who lived along the west coast of the country were seen as enemies. At the time, it was seen as a way to protect the US. Now, it's a very dark time in our history. The coastal Japanese population were taken from their homes and sent off to various camps. They were barely allowed to take anything with them and they weren't compensated for their lost property. While we were fighting to stop concentration camps on the European front, we were building them here. https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Japanese_American_internment

The Tulelake Camp was the largest camp and wasn't closed until 1946. There were also German and Italian POW camps nearby. Feel free to read the links for more information. 

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tule_Lake_War_Relocation_Center

"After a period of use, this facility was renamed the Tule Lake Segregation Center in 1943, and used as a maximum security, segregation camp to separate and hold those prisoners considered disloyal or disruptive to the other camps' operations. That year inmates from other camps were sent here to segregate them from the general population. Draft resisters and others who protested the injustices of the camps, including by their answers on the loyalty questionnaire, were sent here. At its peak, Tule Lake Segregation Center (with 18,700 inmates) was the largest of the ten camps and most controversial."

The sun was out but I still felt a chill as we walked around the empty buildings. Although the camp had been closed for over 60 years, you could still feel the presence of the people who "lived" at Tulelake. You saw the barracks that had been crammed full of people and could almost hear their tears on the wind.

I have family who were in the Nazi concentration camps and we were taught about WWII in World History classes. Due to my background, I was interested in visiting Auschwitz, Birkenau and Treblinka. I wasn't prepared for my feelings about Tulelake. The grounds were oddly quiet. Even the animals who made their homes in the empty camp were silent. A chill fell over me. Would it be like this at Treblinka? Hot tears streamed down my face. This was a topic that was glossed over in US history classes. As if we wanted to erase this dark mark from our past. While the Holocaust is remembered, we should always remember the concentration camps in our own country. Tulelake can't be forgotten. 

Notable Tulelake residents included Pat Morita (Mr. Miagi from The Karate Kid) and George Takei. Takei is currently working on a musical called "Allegiance". It first premiered in Los Angeles in 2012 and is now headed to Broadway. "Allegiance" is Takei's legacy. 

The US government has attempted to make monetary reparations for the Japanese internment camps. However, money won't erase the memories and won't change history. 



Blessed be the memory of those who died at Tulelake.

Sunday, August 9, 2015

Ableist family bullshit

I am in an absolutely "don't fuck with me" mood. For those who don't know, my sister is kicking me out so she can spawn with the lazy douche she's married to. So I'm back up in my college town, trying to find an apartment. The hemming and hawwing of my cosigner already caused me to lose on the best options. Now I have to go through property management, request access, call my doctor at home and get a letter, background check, blah, blah, blah. I didn't have to do any of that for this other place, I have a personal relationship with them. Just sign the rental agreement, pay the deposit and be done. My mom and sister are already packing my stuff.

I call my mom today to tell her about this place I am looking at and to see how my rat Ginny Weasley is. Then my mom dropped a bomb on me.

I'm ending this trip to go to my cousins  (who couldn't identify me in a Starbucks line) Bat Mitzvah which is a Jewish coming of age ceremony. It's at a private venue, owned by a synagogue. It's a summer camp that many of us went to and there's lots of wildlife.  My cousin says they said no dogs. I email their offices as a camp alumnae. I went for 4 summers. I get an email back from and Max is welcome. After I tried to get a hold of my cousin to no avail, I just said that I'm going and Max is coming. I find out that the RSVP wasn't mailed for weeks after.

My cousin's dad calls my parents. He couldn't call his own first cousin to tell her that her medical equipment isn't welcome at this family event. My uncle wouldn't even call me. They couldn't say it  directly to me. "Sorry, your life-saving medical device isn't welcome." It's at a fucking summer camp next to the beach! You own two dogs you twat! Do just not want my "problems" to ruin her special day? Without him, it would be even worse. I'd scream in the middle of someone talking, storm out of the room in tears and probably hurt myself trying to get to the beach via the old basketball courts. Can't have the oddball cousin ruin your princess's big day! It's a Bat Mitzvah at a summer camp, not a debutante ball!

This shouldn't surprise me, almost that whole side of the family is filled with narcissistic, snobby assholes. Only 5 decent people. My grandfather was my major childhood trigger. I wasn't good enough, I wouldn't make it, why was I doing something stupid like that? That asshole verbally tore me apart.  Now I'm supposed to go to an event full of people who love without one of the best tools in my toolbox? My family didn't even stand up for me, they just took it! My mom telling me how she'll help me. I don't want my mother to help me! I have several things  to assist with independent living, just let me use them! Being doped up the whole time won't help.

I'm sorry but if Max isn't welcome, neither am I. He saved my life, I wouldn't be here without him. So no Max, no me.

Leviticus 19:14-"You shall not curse the deaf nor place a stumbling block before the blind; you shall fear your God - I am your Lord."

I am highly medicated on controlled substances right now. I will likely spend the rest of the day eating trail mix while watching shit on YouTube.

Saturday, August 8, 2015

Hypocritical Family Voices

I'm so angry with my parents! They say that they want what is best for me but they never listen! For 2.5 I've been saying how much I hate living in that town, I conflict with my sister and I want to move. But the family keeps saying that I'm not ready, I can't do it on my own and I shouldn't live alone for my own safety. Then my sister decides that she wants me out. BAM! I am moving. None of those previous concerns are brought up, I need to move. And not to a local apartment, those are too expensive. But back to Humboldt where it's cheaper.

The talk of "You should be close to family" and "We'll help you heal" is gone. I was a temporary pain in the ass and they want me gone. I didn't "get better". PTSD doesn't just go away. Fibromyalgia doesn't heal, colitis doesn't leave the colon. THIS IS FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE!

Now I'm back here in Humboldt. Last week I was offered a decently priced apartment. I know the owners personally, they weren't going to demand a background check or an application. But my parents wanted me to look at other places, pointing out flaws with the offered apartment. I wanted to see pictures of the place as it was recently redone. I emailed the landlord and asked for some. She didn't have any but I needed to let her know about the apartment soon as they'd start advertising next week. So I called my mom and I said I wanted the place. But..long story short, between Thursday night and Friday night, the apartment got rented to someone else. Now I have to keep looking which is really stressful, educate about service dogs like mad, pay a bunch of application fees and spend the next 2 weeks grinding my teeth between trips to the toilet!

I was offered the place last week! If my parents had listened to me, it would be mine! I know the rental market here, I know it where they live. They have no clue. Their tenants are ripping them off! Treats one of them like a son! He doesn't pay rent, they go to the movies, dinner, the zoo, the beach and we're not invited. But he won't keep his greasy hands off me! We dated for a few months back in 2012 but he cut off contact because I wouldn't put out. Dude knew that I'm asexual! Now he's acting like my brother from another mother but still comes onto me, nasty! I'm just so angry right now!

Monday, August 3, 2015

Shira's Last Song

At 10 years old, Shira Banki was playing with muscians 4-7x her age.

At 16 years old, Shira was supporting friends in Jerusalem's Pride Parade when a Jewish extremist ripped through the crowd where Shira and 5 others were stabbed. Shira died in the hospital from her wounds.

10 years before, unbeknownst to Shira, this same extremist also went on a stabbing spree at Tel Aviv Pride. He had only been let out a few weeks before. I don't think if Israel has the dealth penalty or if this man will be forced into solitary confinement. But he deserves no mercy from anyone.

Baruch Dayan HaEmet
Blessed is the True Judge
May her name be for a blessing always.

http://jewishstandard.timesofisrael.com/shira-bankis-last-song/